I'm going to water aerobics tonight anyhow - maybe some exercise will work it out.

I made my reservations for RT into LasVegas. There we'll pick up a rental car and drive through AZ, to Canyon DeChelly and back along North AZ and maybe up into St George UT and back into Las Vegas. We're calling this the Thelma and Louise trip.

It's been a dream of mine for at least 10 years to see the cliff dwellings. The real cliff dwellings I want to see are in Colorado, Cliff Palace at Mesa Verde. Canyon DeChelley is just to hold me over until we really get there.

Nothing much happened today. I'm kind of bored. I need to lose some weight so my clothes fit better. I have a closet full of clothes and only a few of the things fit me well enough to wear. I gained 10+ lbs since April. I need to get back to WW. I have no excuses now.

I also want to get in better shape for our trip to Mexico. I don't expect I'll be any bathing beauty - but I at least would like to be more presentable.

Only one of my favorite online journals were updated today. Where is everybody?

On the Jen & Ben issue, so many people are so negative about it. I still maintain my standard response in times like this "Anybody is lucky to find anybody that they are compatible with". I'm not taking any sides here - but I watched them on dateline a few weeks ago - and I think Jen is anxious to find her own perfect husband, but I don't think Ben is the one. I think she's trying, I can see it in the way she looks at him. I think for him, she's just another woman, another notch in the old belt, another been there done that. His mannerisms and demeanor remind me of the HBO character Tony Soprano. Ben may never find anybody he's compatible with, or if he does he won't realize it until it's too late. I think Jen will eventually, but she's going to harden her heart from this one. Who knows, I can appreciate anybody who has worked hard and is successful and wanting to have a successful relationship to help round out their life, but I don't think it's possible for them.

There was one time in my life, where I swore that I would never let another man make me cry. I probably still won't. I love my husband very much, but I'm sure he understands where I'm at. It won't happen, I've compromised enough of myself in my life with my first husband and his lack of personal responsibility, and then with the second man in my life. I'm sure MPH knows that there are no second chances here. I love him very much, but he's not going to make me cry. I know I can do just fine by myself - as well as with him. MPH is 100% true-blue as a husband and a friend. When you know - you know it's true.

Well gotta go, Geegee wanted me to come early to gossip.