Do you ever wonder how it is that for some people this comes naturally and and others it wouldn't come to them if it was tattoed on their arms?

Well today I kept busy - I cleaned out one of the locked storage rooms. I found some stuff that I should have found sooner too. I feel like I've morphed into my predecessor 'ole dead fish eyes'.

ODFE is a lady that we worked with until she transferred to a different entity all together. She's one of the people that it's amazing that she's made it this far in life - and what's even more amazing is how much of a fraud she is and probably doesn't even know it. People love her too. When we first reorganized into the building that I currently work in - it was just her and me - slowly I realized that she didn't know what the hell she was doing. I was convinced that she was a part time employee because she came in at 8:30 and left at 4:00 everyday, until I asked the timekeeper who told me that her hours were supposed to be 8:00 to 4:30 or something like that.

ODFE didn't know how to write anything and sent ridiculous emails. She acted all self-important and always seemed to feel like she deserved promotions. She was a fraud - but there were so few of us that actually know what it is that we're actually supposed to do - and there was no way to show anybody that she was a fraud because I couldn't hold anybodys attention span long enough to show them.

I know in my last journal entry I thought I should become less judgmental - but I guess I'm just built this way - I have to deal with it.

ODFE became her name from the former peer high priestess of the North who has since moved on to a another position that she says helps her to direct her contempt in another direction. Former peer high priestess trained ODFE endlessly and set up files for her and showed her continuously how to do this and that and then came to realize that everything she said was going in one ear and out the other of ODFE. It got to a point where when she started to rant at her, she was getting a blank look from her that resembled the look of old dead fish eyes. When the Former peer high priestess told me this story via email - I nearly died laughing. It was a long story - I loved it and identified with her totally.

I was really grateful that ODFE finally moved on to another job - but I kept waiting for them to discover that she really didn't know anything - but it never happened as far as I can tell. The people that she went to work with was just happy to get somebody to deal with the crap that they didn't know how to deal with - so there was no way that they would ever learn that she didn't really know how to deal with it either.

More later.